i am bruised i dunno. it wasnt great. mabye next time? guh but on top of that im nervous because everyone seems to like him including of course the ex of two years that i know nothing about. i wish i knew something about them so i could be comfortable with this. it would just be nice to know that im not fooling around with a boy whos playing me or whos just gonna leave me. especially since the fact that us doing whatever is apparent to his friends. ESPECIALLY since i dont get a great amount of satisfaction from it. im gonna feel really dumb i think.