so ive realized that ive lost so much of my patience for everyting. i used to be able to tolerate so much. and now im just a bitch and i hate it and im sorry. i think i could really start to hate myself and i dont want to bring the handful of people that i care about most down. i hate doing that so if i bitch er whatever.. at anyone i really am sorry im working on it so just tell me to shut the hell up