I had a pretty sucky night last night, thanks to my ex-best friend's underage alcoholic girlfriend. Here's the backstory: Kevin and I met my freshman year, and were inseparable for years. It was always me, Kevin, Deanna. Well, almost a year ago, Kevin met Tracy. Tracy is a very jealous person, and decided that she didn't want Kevin around anybody female. He decided to let her push him around and stopped talking to me. Kevin and I have a mutual friend, Jarred, that I've been hanging out with lately. Jarred wanted to go out last night, so the 4 of us went together. We went to a club, and Tracy and I went to the bathroom. When we came out, I went to the bar to get a drink, and a guy came up behind Tracy and asked if she was drinking in the bathroom. She said she hadn't been. But she knew he could smell the alcohol from earlier on her breath, so she said she drank before she got there. He politely asked her to leave because she's a minor, so I had to go get Kevin and Jarred and we left. It scared her enough that she hopefully won't pull crap like that again. And she's only 2 months away from being legal, so I hope she can manage to stay out of trouble. Anyway, it made for a sucky night. The only good thing was that I made it home in time to talk to my honey online. It was a rough conversation though. Here are bits and pieces: Gerd: you are really making me wanna quit this line of work me: no baby, u like what you're doing. Gerd: yeah, but i really miss you. grrrr, this is frustrating me: i miss you too baby Gerd: I do amazing stuff out here, but I don't get to see my loved ones, or tell anybody till i get home for the most part, and then, I've forgotten a lot of it.....and i just dunno. sometimes I worry that I shouldn't settle down at all right now. I'm so scared babe me: I know baby. and there's no rush. if it doesn't feel right, let me know. we can back off or whatever you need. Gerd: I don't want to put a damper on things, but every day i almost dread checking my email for fear of getting one about an old boyfriend that came over and charmed you into either getting back with him, or just having a good 'ole romp.............and I feel like I can trust you, and that's what makes it really frustrating, I just don't know where this horrid feeling in the pit of my stomach is coming from Gerd: its not that we are rushing babe, see previous message me: i know babe. Gerd: and i don't know how you can know all of this, that I can tell you all of this, and you still be okay with everything. You seem to have no doubts me: I don't baby. I know I want to be with you. If it's too much for you to worry about right now, then we can hold off. i'll wait as long as you need me to. Gerd: see, that's what i'm saying - why would you wait on me? Gerd: what do you see in me babe? me: because i love you. i told you, you're all i've ever wanted. if i could build the perfect man for me, he'd come out exactly like you, except not far away. Gerd: I usually feel like i'm just another 25 year old roughneck, trying to keep the ends meeting, with dreams that if they don't come true will turn to night mares Gerd: grrrrr, i'm frustrated, I'm sorry babe, I shouldn't lay this off on you me: it's okay baby.you can lay anything on me. we share the good and the bad. Gerd: i don't think we are going too fast, i'm just scared that you are going to decide that we moved too fast and tell me that you miss your freedom me: no way baby. LATER Gerd: every once in a while, i get the feeling that you would do absolutely anything for me, or to me that I wanted......the feeling dosen't happen often, but it does sometimes happen. why do i feel this way, and is it for real? me: it is for real baby. i love you, and i would do anything for you, to make you happy, to protect you. as long as it doesn't harm my family, i'd do anything in the world for you. Gerd: I'm sorry if I say that i love you too much.......but babe, i love you me: you could never say it enough. i love you too baby. Gerd: lol, okay - I love you LATER Gerd: well, IF we stay together, and work out, after a few more years of doing this kinda work, i want to build that house i was telling you about, and I want to go into my dad's business, then we can work together, live together, laugh, love, pray, and stay together as much as we can stand it, and probably a bit more Okay, so that last bit worries me slightly. I keep telling him that I want to teach, but it almost seems like he's ignoring that, like I'm just going to do what he wants. Hopefully that will get better with time, I don't know. On to another subject: I asked off work for March 11 so I can go to my bro's regional powerlifting meet. We were going to leave Thursday night and be there all day Friday. Well, now my parents wanna leave Thursday morning. So now I either have to take off work Thursday too and risk getting bitched out by my boss again, or just not go. Or maybe Gerd will wanna go up Friday. We'll see. I just really wanna be there for Jake.