I feel like I need to write, but I don't know what to say. Gerd and I are done. Maybe I'll post the final online conversation later today. Long story short, he decided to "wash [his] hands of this mess". I'd already said after the last incident that if either one of us felt like we wanted out, that'd be it, I'd walk away. So that's what I did. I have to force myself to not read his diary [rigrat] anymore, it hurts. He made a comment that made it sound like I was the one that wanted out. And now he's going on and on about this girl he met THE DAY AFTER we were over. Thursday night I had a text message from him saying "Sorry babe, wish you were there!". I wrote back the next morning asking what he meant, all I got was "LOL, nevermind". We'd agreed we weren't going to talk anymore, so it really bothered me that he would send a message like that. And then I read that he met a girl that night. Last night, Saturday, after we left the club (this was the first time I'd gone out since it happened. My friend told me I needed to stop moping and get out.) I sent him a message saying "Hope you're enjoying yourself" . There were a few messages exchanged, so I'll give a running dialogue. Me: "hope you're enjoying yourself" Him: "Sorry, I was busy. I'm having a blast!" Him: "Well, I'm enjoying myself, are you enjoying yourself?" Me: "Yessir, I am" Him: "Sorry I didn't respond earlier, I was tied up...yeah...tied up! Me: "LOL, good for you" Him: "Wish you were here with me, she saw your pic and said she'd love to eat you" Me: "I'm happy for you and all, but I don't want to hear about you and other girls" Him: "I figured you were out meeting other guys...didn't think you'd care" Me: "Of course I care. I'm definitely not out hooking up with anyone, and if I was, I wouldn't be rubbing your face in it" Him: "I'm not rubbing anything in your face". This all ended about 4:30-ish. When I woke up this morning I saw I had a message from him at 5:30 asking if I was there. Nope, I won't be there anymore. If he's going to be inconsiderate and immature like this, then there's no chance of reconciliation. I said I was walking away, that's what I'm gonna do. It hurts that he's sleeping with someone else already. He wasted no time. This makes me question whether he really loved me or not, since it was so easy for him to find someone else. I do wish him luck, I hope he finds someone wonderful....and I hope he's careful. How can you sleep with someone you JUST MET? He made such a big deal about my friend Brandy picking up guys, now he's doing the same thing. What happened to "find them at the bar, leave them at the bar"? He's gone completely against everything he's preached. I feel like I never knew him. I'm lost.