I just wanna curl up in a little ball in my bed and stay there. I've been slowly losing faith in people...I think I've about hit bottom. The people I work with, all the new people I've met, even the "friends" I've known forever are letting me down. I was called a Bitch tonight because I spoke my mind. A guy I've known forever came into town for the weekend. He wanted to go see a movie with me, I said I didn't feel like going out. He got all upset because he got dressed up and I turned him down. He said everyone was turning him down, and said that we're mean and unfair or whatever. I pointed out that if he didn't neglect his friends the rest of the year, that maybe they'd be more willing to see him when he comes home. He pops off with "I call y'all every time I'm home". I said "Yeah, when you're home. But how much of the year are you gone? We never hear from you when you're at school, and then you just expect us to drop everything because you decided you have time for us." He said whatever, then to whoever was there with him "She's being a bitch". And hung up. I told his voicemail not to ever call me a bitch just because I'm telling him the truth. So I won't hear from him again until he's lonely, and we'll have the same fight all over again. I'm done. I've been done for awhile, I try to avoid him at all costs. Maybe now he'll leave me alone. Okay, now on to good things. Despite my boss being a ditz, she's very observant. She's always told me what a good job I've done, she's always seemed to rely on me...it's more than that now. It's like she needs me more than before. Yesterday in the afternoon, as soon as I got my kids in our BigRoom for snack, the supervisor says "As soon as you pass out your snack, Kelley needs you in her office". I immediately think "Oh crap, what happened now?!" Kelley got a new computer, and had no idea what she was doing. It felt kinda good to be the only person on staff that could help. Yeah, it's only because I'm a computer nerd, but it still made me feel good! I helped install her printer, then went back to my kids. After that, every 10 minutes she'd come down to my room and say "Come here quick, I think I messed something up!" so I'd fix whatever she did and show her what to do if it happens again. I ran through all the programs with her and made sure she knew how to use them. Now, on top of all this, her 15-month-old son has just been added to my class. So whenever I'd go help Kelley, I had to take baby Joshua with me because he screamed and would NOT let the aide near him. As soon as I walked out the first time, he yelled "AWN! AWN! ACK!" (Dawn! Back!) So I think now I've proven myself indespensible. Kelley had to stay late again this afternoon (she usually only comes in in the morning) and I again was called into her office. This time it was because the other girls haven't been filling out the call log properly and haven't been following the procedure Kelley laid out for newly interested families. Whenever someone calls to inquire about our preschool, we're supposed to take the name and number, then call Kelley immediately so she can call them and set up an appointment. Apparently I'm the only one that does this. Everyone else just writes down the first name of who called and tells them to call back. We had 3 interested mothers call this week, and they haven't called back. We could have had 3 more children enrolled if they would have done it right. GRR! So now Kelley wants me to keep the phone with me all day. The afternoon supervisor doesn't like this because it's her job to take the calls. Well ya know what, if you would've done what the boss asked instead of being lazy, she'd trust you and let you have more responsibility. She's just upset because now she can't be as nosy, she won't know everything that goes on. Anyway, it makes me feel good knowing that I'm doing everything right and that my boss notices. So not everything's so yucky.