My buddy Kirk's on leave from Iraq. Last night we went to see "Wedding Crashers", went out to eat, hung out for awhile and just caught up. We haven't seen each other in 9 months, and haven't actually spent time together in over a year. We were listening to a c.d. a buddy made for him, and a Staind song came on. It took me awhile to realize I'd heard it before, last year at Bocktoberfest. The song had just been written, they'd never done it live before, and didn't even have a name for it yet. I really paid attention to the words as it was playing over Kirk's stereo, and started to cry: Right here waiting I know I've been mistaken But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made I've got some imperfections But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting I hope you're not intending To be so condescending it's as much as i can take and you're so independent you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting I've made a commitment I'm willing to bleed for you I needed fulfillment I found what I need in you Why can't you just forgive me I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting But you always find a way To keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting That about sums it up. It was good to see Kirk again. He leaves again soon to finish his tour, which makes me worry because it's so dangerous, but he's almost done. He told me about his travels, about how things are where he's stationed, and all about his ex. They broke up in March because she cheated on him, and now she's living with a much older man 1 1/2 hours away. So yeah, he's hung up on it. He asked alot of questions about Gerd, and hopes to meet him after he comes back home. They're both such great guys, I'm lucky to call them both my friends. I put in my 2-week notice today, and it turned out to be a huge fiasco. I was asked if more money or more hours would make me stay. I said I couldn't, I've already made a commitment to this new job. And I know they won't give me more money. Yeah, they'd give me more hours no problem, but who wants to spend MORE time in a place they're already sick of? I'm going to miss the preschool, but I won't miss: -dirty diapers -checking heads for lice -working with several bitchy women -getting hit, kicked, and bitten -dealing with parents with rage issues -having little kids backwash in my Dr. Pepper (a little booger stole my drink today, and went to time-out!) So yeah, I'm definitely getting out at the right time. I had another parent ask me to babysit her kid today. I told her I'm usually busy on weekends, but I'd give her my number anyway. If I can't do it, I have friends that can. This turned out to be alot longer than I expected, so I'll just quit now!