I called Gerd tonight. The last I'd heard from him was Sunday morning at 4 a.m. when he said he went to a club then was going to an after-party. I intially was angry, because he gave me crap the one time I went to an after-party, and here he was doing it. Anyway, it's not like him to go a day without calling or sending some kind of message. So I called to make sure he was still alive. He was fine, then I said I had to go. I saw he was online, I sent him a message and said I was sorry if I interrupted anything--he was rather short with me, so I thought something was up. He said he was getting ready to go out, but he wanted to talk later. I said I was going to bed, so I couldn't talk later. He called me, and asked me to never call him again, that he deserves better than me. I asked where this was coming from--the past few days we'd been fine. He said I never went to see him. So I guess the freakin week I took off work to stay in Houston--when he knows I hate Houston-- meant nothing. I asked if this was because I didn't cancel plans with my friends when he asked me to this weekend, he just said he deserved better than me. Frankly, I don't think he'll find anyone that will treat him better than I did. At least not anyone with a backbone. Maybe that's what he wants-- someone who'll do what he asks when he asks. I can't be that. I can't just give up my life and everything here to go where he wants me to go. Especially not if we're not together. I'm actually relieved that it's done, I hope he lets it stay that way. I know the way Gerd is, and I know he's feeling a great amount of hatred for me right now, but that's just how he deals with things. I haven't done anything against him, I've tried to be the best friend to him I can be without losing myself, but I know he's bitter toward me. That's fine, there's nothing I can do about that, I just hope he lets me be. I wish him the best of luck, I hope it does find someone better suited for him than me.