Okay, so from what Gerd said, he wasn't the one sending me messages about being "tied up". I'm going to publicly apologize to Gerd now for telling a white lie. I told him I didn't read his sitD, but I did. I'm sorry, I didn't want to seem weak, so I told you I didn't read it. I did, and I was furious. Probably the same way you felt when you read my status messages. However, I didn't intend for you to read those. Since you said you were washing your hands of me, I thought you'd delete me from your contact lists, so I assumed you'd never see them. Anyway, that's over, I'm sorry for the way it happened. We're going to be friends. I protested profusely, but decided I'm not going to let my heart overrun my head. I know he can be a wonderful friend, I don't want to lose him, so I'll just have to deal with any pain that I may feel initally. It will get easier, it'll be worth it. He had to go to his parent's last night to pick up his coveralls his mom was sewing patches on, so he came to see me. We went out to the Eagles Lodge to watch fireworks together (and make a few of our own, lol). So I'm not used to having "friends with benefits", at least of this magnitude. Right now, it's great. I know it's going to end up being difficult though...we've talked about it, and agreed to always be honest with one another. If we start things up with other people, we're going to tell each other about it. Years down the road, if we're both unattached and still have feelings for each other, we might make another go at it. This all puts my mind at ease a little, but I'm still worried. It's so much easier for him to meet people than it is for me. When I go out, it's only with close friends. For the most part, I only talk to the people I'm there with. Gerd's so friendly, he talks to everyone, so naturally he's gonna meet people. Probably girl people. Interested girl people. I'm going to try not to worry about it, just deal with it when it comes, but I need to brace myself. It's gonna happen, it's gonna hurt. Oh boy.