i was thinking today during church (Becuase i didn't want to listen...let alone be there) and i realized a few of my worst fears. there's two main ones that i thought of today. maybe three... the "maybe" one is losing someone, but that applies to a lot of people and is a given for me... the first one is getting breast cancer. my grandma and aunt died from it and now my other aunt has it. i'm really really paranoid about getting it. I always have been. the second one that really really gets to me is the fear of being alone my whole life. I'm not so worried about it right now because i live with my family. but i would not be able to stand living alone. i see people that aren't married and aren't in relationships (even though they do have friends) and it just scares me that i'll grow old and i'll be like that. i'm afraid i'll be one of those adults walking around the house leaving the tv on so it's not so quit, just waiting and hoping for someone to call or stop by so i'm not so lonely. it scares the hell out of me...