Yearbook day today. It was kind of boring, plus, I was really tired. And as much as I love friends to sign my year book, I find it somewhat pointless. Because half of the people that sign it will say something like, "have a good summer", or "you're a cutie! Don’t ever change." And yes, that's nice and all, but I don't really care! How often do they actually mean it? I like when my friends sign it and it actually means something and they can actually say something reflecting the year and what not, but then there's people who go around wanting everyone sign their book, even if you've talked to them maybe once this year. I don't know, I don't get it...I’m a loser. Yesterday was one of those days when I just felt bad about myself all day long. It was horrible. I felt like everyone was just annoyed by me and judging me and it was getting to me. It got me thinking about relationships and guys and I’m so sick of the whole thing. I'm just sick of dealing with everything with it. But somehow, I just can't get away from it. No matter how hard I try. And I don't mean that all these guys just come to me or anything. What I mean is that I’m getting myself involved with stupid things (subconsciously). It's hard to explain and I’m not exactly sure how to explain it, but I’m sick of it. This school year went by fast. I’m not sure if I’m happy for not. I am really really glad that it’s the school is over, but at the same time, I can’t imagine what next year will be like. Holly might not be there, all my senior buddies will be gone, I think I will have harder classes, ect, ect. And I can’t even imagine how the summer will be…damn you future! Sad thing is, I’m so sick of everyone and everything right now and I just want to be by myself. I have to admit, as much as i love being with people t feels good every once in a while to be alone.