god, i'm so depressed right now. Everyone is moving. first it was jarren, but that's not as big of a deal because when his family moves, i won't really see him anymore anyways because he'll be out of high school (he's a senior). Then it was matt. Matt and i were extreamly good friends last year. we aren't as good this year, but man, i love that kid to death. and he's moving, but at least he's coming back his senior year. so, it's not as bad as jarren, but still bad. Then tonight, i found out josh was moving. everyone says he likes me (i don't think so), and i'm actually starting to like him. he goes to a different school becuase he's a year younger. but he's going to move to oregon this summer so, i won't even get ot see him (the diff. school thing). and i think i'm actually starting to like this kid. It's so sad. It makes me feel so shitty. Plus, there's a chance holly might move. one of my best friends ever might move to oregon. if she does, that's four peole in one summer. three is bad enough. it pisses me off!!!! damn... The banquet was good though...touching. as stupid as it sounds. i love my coach. she's the greatest. she calls everyone one up individually and tells everyone something good about them. most of the time it was about how they swam and how much they imporved. but with me it was different. I got up there and she didn't really mention anything about swimming. i didn't mind at all. she started talking about how sweet i was and how i was a big thing to the team becuase i helped everyone bond. She said whenever i would talk to her it would always be something good, never bad. even if it was, "you smell good." she said that just got along with everyone and that i was a sweetheart. It might not seem much, but it means so much to me! I wanted to cry! then jarren passed out letters. his talked about how much he'll miss my massages (of course) and my smile. he said i have an amazing smile, which just added to the emotionalness. God, i don't want them to move. It makes me cry! i hate it! this amazingly funny kid, one of my really relaly good friends, and somone that i actually am attracted to as more than a friend are all moving. then my best friend might move. i...i don't know. just thinking about htem being gone makes me cry...