Well, tomorrow is valentines day. I got roses from koskan today. four of them! dahhh!!! i dont' want him to like me. And i'm trying to be nice, but hint it at the same time. I don't think it's working. Other than that, i got nothing. It sucks. but ig uess it's normal. There are a lot i know that got stuff, but at the same time, there's more that didn't. barrett is having a party tonight. i don't want to go. at all. but hol and niki want me to. yeah, i don't want to. so ya know. and i wouldjust not go, but we were planning on sleeping over at niki's and go sled down hills with garbage sacks at 1 in the morning. so, i want to do that, but don't think i can get a ride at 11 at night. man, how i wish i could drive.... my rat is dieing. and as much i don't like that rat (Even though i love animals), i feel horrible about it. it's so sad. i don't know if it's just becuase it's old, or what the old thing is a big possisbility, but it's eye looks hurt. maybe it was climbing on the cage and fell or something. but it has a hard time breathing and i can hear it. it makes me feel really really bad. i rememeber my guinea pig dieing when i was real young. i loved that animal and was devastated when it died. i don't want to get any more animals unless they live a long time. i can't deal with the death. sorry, this entry is a long one...