I'm feeling good...sorta I finally read my tarot cards for the first time in 3 months. Well I guess after Ian I stopped caring what the future held. I stopped caring at all. I was too scared that my cards would tell me that bullshit lie ahead. But my in my recent reading the cards showed a sign of hope and thats always nice. I was happy for Kaelen this weekend..getting her "thang" on..although right next to me wasn't the best idea..but still good job Kaelen. Atleast one of us is getting some sort action. I didnt see Chris at the concert but I saw alot of his friends which made me sad. Have you ever not known anything about someone but you just have this connection and you can become so close without ever actually having a conversation? Thats how it was with me and Chris and I have been thinking about him alot lately, prolly bc its about the same time of the year I met him. At first it was cool that it was a summer fling and that was it. But now I miss him and it kinda sucks. The last time I saw him was in december and I was going out with Ian so I just said hi as he tried to get "catch up" again. But damn.....If I had known Ian woudl be incapable of having a relationship I wouldve said fuck-it and then hung out with Chris... ahh well everything happens for a reason we got a new band name: ididntmeantu sound it out, you'll get it. until next time