Listening to: my microwave
Feeling: subdued
Well my moms' boyfriends' daughter, Haley, who is my age(15)is pregnant.
Yesterday after we heard this news..my mom said the most emabarrasing thing but it was reassuring. She said that as soon as I wanted to start having sex that I should come to her no matter how embarrased I am and she would immediatley bring me to the doctor to get birth control. Now I dont plan on having sex any time soon but it was nice to know that she was going to be there.
It was wierd though..because for never hearing her say "I love you" or even give me a hug in 3 years...I actually felt like she cared. hmm.
She was telling me about how when she was pregnant with my brother at 16 and couldnt go to prom or party with her friends (which explains why she is so uptight) she never got to live a teen life and she told me she NEVER wished that on anyone, especially me.
And then I asked her, "Is that the only reason you and dad got married was because you had a kid?" and she replied, "yes".
That made me really sad.......
my childhood was a lie.
~dusk~
~dusk~
I love the country so after college I think I'm gonna build my house in the country away from people. Midland is a small town so its not to bad. I love Harrison, where our cottage is, no street lights not many people, very peaceful at night. I love just looking at the stars and I can't do that here ... :'(
xo
mandie
that's cool
blessing of the night unto thee
_Jess
i mean
reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaalllllllllyyyyyyyy
bored.
adios
-dot