"I hate everyone...don't know what to do" God fucking damn it. Everything turned to shit. I guess it always does in the end. Came home from my dads the other day and my mom was just estatic to see me. [note the sarcasm.] She had her usual "why the fuck did u even come back" attitude. I was pissed that she was making me feel so shitty and I confronted her and she started to yell and I started to yell. Then she slapped me. I remember before saying that was the last time she would ever hit me so this time I smacked her back..harder I think ..and then she slapped me and it continued until I went to go call someone and she pulled on my hair and broke the phone. Then I went to pack but she told me I could only take things from that my dad bought me..which is nothing (except for my guitar which is good) and then I layed trying to cut myself for hours with a pin(which doesnt really work by the way unless u plan on poking urself which I didnt) and crying bc I hate her so god damn fucking much. Pathetic I know but thats me I guess. I havent left my room for two days until now. Then Kaelen and I had a big misunderstanding which I'm sure shes still pissed about. She thought I was upset and acting as if it was such a "chore" to be around her. When all I was trying to express is that fact that we were there for her when she didnt really have anyone and I felt as if she totally forgot about that. Kaelen, I'm not pissed it was jsut a misundersnooding. And what I got from your entry was that you didnt want to be friends anymore... by saying "THEY make great friends not US" But if that was another misundersnooding then its cool and thanks for the jacket. I am just so angry at everything right now that its making me sick to my stomach. Oh yeah, my hair is red. Wildfire red. It rocks. I cant write(besides this entry), I cant think, I cant breathe, I cant paint....I just feel like hiding and never coming out. This is the most angry and upset time of my life and I really sucks that there is no one here to make it feel less horrible. But I guess I can survive by myself....Its not like I havent before. until next time...I guess