There isnt this mood on here so I had to say it my way, "oh I'm so utterely depressed" lol kaelen... Well, I'm out. I'm free. I'm no longer a prisioner of that fucking place. So why am I not excited?? Could it be I wanted to be there tomarrow? Yes. I wanted to say my goodbyes to the whole 4 friends I have and go home and go to the Natalie fight concert (where I'm going to miss a shit load of great moments I might add)and hang out with my bandmates and laugh over stupid things we do or think about. But I'm going on a 8hr drive with a bunch of people I cant stand. In a place where I'd love to explore and cant. And then stay in a hotel with all those people mentioned before and even more. I know this whole entry is a total complaint,which is no fun to read but god damn I am sad. It was wierd..I guess even when you think you have let go of things and they are behind you, when you are confronted with the memories....it still stings. (Seeing Ian after school) I thought I was over him, I mean I am, so what the hell? I hate my mind. He purposely decieves me. lol and yes my mind is a guy...we all have our little secrets...haha j/k until next time