oh how great it feels to not care. I feel like I have been stabbed so many times that ive built this nice little shield and now whenever anyone tries to stab me it jsut bounces off and it feels wonderful. how sweet to feel this robotic. so invincable, one of the only good things coming from the so many bad. I feel at peace even though I know there are still many things unsolved. I still dont belong but I'd rather not belong than to belong so well that I am just another face in the crowd. no frustrations in the art area, so many ideas its fabulous. oh the excitment. conscience is clear. vision as well. I've become so comfortable where I am, not being able to fall any deeper. I am in the bottom of the pit. and its a fabulous pit at that. I'm loving every second of it. ta ta bitches