I feel like I know what I have to do. I think this summer is sposed to be about remebering how I grew up. Hanging out with my grandparents..going fishing....doing things I used to love to do before life started sucking. Its been so long since I've done so many things....I need to go back. I thought of this when I was super stoned last night so yeah...hahah And I dont think I am going to meet anyone this summer...bc Im really trying not to like jordan...and the more I do the more it works so..yeah... But if I dont meet someone but gained alot more it wouldnt even matter. Theres always next year to find a guy. whoa...was that just....hope? humm.... until next time