The place I dread the most is the place I am forced to go to everyday. I hate school. Its not that I hate doing work, not that I like it, but the whole concept of getting up way too early to face a bunch of people I cant stand and to face teachers whose heads I want to rip off, doesnt exactly make me a happy camper. I know your sposed to make the best out of situations instead of complaining, but I cant do it anymore. I cant pretend to be having a good day and pretend to be in a good mood and laugh along at everything bc that really doesnt help me, it just helps others so I dont "bring them down" but I really dont give a fuck anymore. As selfish as that may be. Besides I have no one to "bring down" now anyways. I really dont have a reason to get up. That may sound sad but for once I'm ok with it. Thankfully I'm in this numb state where nothing really matters and feelings dont seem to phase me. Which I think is the most beautiful state to be in. --------------------------------------- Ah well I guess I just have to deal with the fact that I have three more years in this shit hole. ------------------------------------ And then I'm gone forever. toodles bitches.