what more is there to say? really, if you think about it arent we all? sure.. why not? since i cant get that off my mind, why not just get into it. you're not supposed to be able to speak to your friends about everything, no more lies. i dont really know whats going to happen. its just, when im away, and i think of the situation, i dont cared. however, as soon as i speak with him, i just give in. i dont like it. i hate having to melt. i want to be on my own, yet i am, but i still.. it wont go away, the doubt. i dont want to get married. he's there, always there. so perfect. he's generous, kind, careful with his words.. how can i? what? whats with the weird obsession? this obviously isnt the norm, Oo? there's too much to do, so little time. i guess im just going to have to cope with the fact that its not all going to get done. yes, there he is again. watch me fall.