i'm still incredibly angry. college was ok, my english teacher is opinionatd and obnoxious... however, my music teacher is laidback and open-minded. ha. this is going to be too easy... and to think that i'm probably going to have to deal with it for two or three years... life's great. i told my mom that if somehow i was re-admitted, i would do anything possible to obtain an "A" in at least one of my classes... if only it were that easy. i'm just glad i'm over it.. at least i think that's why i've allayed my emotions. part of me is suspecting that my mind has now calmed down because there's hope. i went to my old school today... and i showed the office assistant.. she said it would be fixed and everything would be ok... i'm not convinced... damn budget cuts... augh. if only... ay, my feet are cold. well i guess i can't really do anything.. just show up and hope all goes well... yes... fun stuff na? this is bullshit... a week ago i was fretting over whether or not my other papers would be sent to santa cruz on time.... fuck.. if i had only sent the letter myself... i would have pointed out the error... and all would have been well... if only if only if only! if this doesn't happen for me... i just dont know... i still would like to just sleeeeeeeeeeeeep! i'm tired.. and very sensitive.. i feel sorry for my sister... but then again... even before this... hahahaha she ticks me off lol. it's ok though, at least i have her here. i'm still angry. i usually don't like repeating words.. but i can't help it... I'M SO ANGRY. ha... man... two days ago.. i was on top of the world.. i had it sooo well... eeesh. considering the circumstances... i guess i still do... it's just.. change of plans.