yet at times i think im really close with my friends but then i relize no.. again im just a kid in the corner.. i always feel my friends are being taken away from me and it makes me sad it always feels like theres someone taking them away and if not that theres always a moment where i feel left.. left for dust and dirt and grime to collect upon.. i missed you too jess i wrote two notes for you but i guess it means nothing,.. by the way im happy your back and was looking forward to the fair with you but youll probably go hang out with those who care more about you.. also im sorry i never call anyone.. if you feel im trying to ignore you people.. youve thought wrong because i simply just dont use the phone.. that and the fact that i have no life because i have a job.. but i never here from you either and im never in any of these lets all call each other at one time deals.. where everyone talks on the phone at once about all of our little problems and find more ways to see each other and get to be better friends.. but then never include those who arent on the phone with us.. no effence to my friends but i do put my family first and i love them and i always feel that God and them is all i have in life because friends seem to hurt and i always feel that my friends hurt me more then my family does and.. i know my family will be there before my friends ever will and dont write some dumbass comment about how your my friend and that you feel the same way and your sorry that i feel this way cuz i dont think you really understand the way i feel but dont worry im not broken up inside because again im used to the pain from my friends