school..BORING.. life..BORING.. i want something to come up where im always busy.. i want to be able to spend time with someone who plans the fun.. im tired of always being like oh hey lets do this this weekend.. and shit cuz i always feel like ppl dont really want to do the things that i want to do cuz i always feel like they really dont want to do it.. and then i feel like im kind of using them but im not im just trying to have fun with the ppl and stuff.. i love everyone.. i hope i have fun at this lifeguard shit tonight cuz otherwise ill be pissed cuz i could've gone to the movies with tanner and damon or i couldve gone to the movies with corey but i dont think i would cuz ya i dont want to but i wanted to go with tanner and damon cuz it would be aqcuired as hell and i think that would be funny so i want to go really really bad.. grr.. and or i want to go tomorrow but i have grants party and then maybe sarahs house so blah..! but ya me and eric had ickaloo days.. sorry to us lol.. i wanted a donut this morning and never got one.. grr.. oh and im mad my rents say that if i dont get this gay band made up.. then i get no christmas thats soo gay.. i hate it its stupid..! stupid band and its gay like ways..! i find myself writing in this more again.. why is that.. wierd im an off and on person when it comes to this thing.. im gonna count how many entrys i have cuz im cool like that and have nothing better to do and am very interested in counting them to see how many i really have..! i want commitment..!