so i have a bad soar throat.. and it hurts like a fucking bitch.. along with that i have a massive headache.. and still feel as if im passing out.. it hurts when i move my eyes up down or sideways.. i have no idea why.. and the only time i feel better is when im at work.. which is probably what has made me sick.. oh and of course.. when im with eric.. speaking of him.. i went to erics house yesterday.. it was pretty sweet.. i got to see his bike.. and his chucks.. and of course i got to meet his dad.. which was awesome.. then after going to his splendid house.. we went to my house and watched some movie.. uh it was like.. uh hell i dont even remember.. as it was like power rangers and it was a very cheesy movie.. but we couldnt watch all of it cuz it was 12 and it was still going so eh.. uh eventually today i plan on just ripping out my esophagus which i probably totally bombed that word.. but i dont care.. but yeah.. just cuz it hurts so bad.. and i drank more water yesterday like eric said.. but it still didnt work.. i still am sick.. mom actually kind of cared as she gave me zinc.. which was awesome.. except im still in pain and dont know if it is working.. we were doing communion at church yesterday.. and me practically on drugs from the feeling of passing out.. i really had no meds in me either.. anyway.. big d was passing out the bread and then dad came around passing out the wine.. when it got to me we both kind of spilled it.. on the brand new carpet.. and to top it off.. when i drank the wine.. it burned my throat and about killed me and it made me get tears in my eyes cuz it just hurt that bad.. i went back to my seat and mom was like its ok you just will have to pick it up after and i was like uh thats not why im almost crying but i didnt tell her that.. oh and like after church.. or the ending of service dad like stopped singing cuz he like started to cry kind of which was sad.. and we were only singing the battle hymn of the republic.. but he started almost crying cuz his aunt and my great aunt is like in the hospital in st cloud practically dying i guess.. i dont really know but they were there the other night.. and had no idea till they came home.. tonight we.. as in my cousins and our moms.. are meeting up with connor and his mom at christas house.. and they want me and my mom to stay the night but i dont think that we will as i am sick and mom does not want to.. i totally would except once loree finds out that im sick.. she is not even gonna want me to come out there.. but i am.. toodles for now i need to take a shower.