so at church today i relized that i have no life and am a loser.. again.. it made me relize that my two cousins have offically fallen into the pleasure of having lives while i sit and party with my friends.. and blah.. sarahs telling me about ddr tomorrow.. sams house.. i dont feel up to it really.. im so sick of living in my skin ugh blah not another damn entry of how i feel.. im sick of typing so much shit which people probably get annoyed of.. but the feeling isnt going away so *sticks tounge out* i dont know how to make things better.. if sarah asks me to officially go tomorrow i dont think i will because id rather sit on my ass and not pretend.. im sick of doing things.. im sick of making a retard out of myself.. i cant help but to think of that weekend with the movie taping thing and to think of how stupid and dumb i was and how blah and alana and i should go to hell.. well at least me cuz alanas cool which makes it exceptional.. ugh blah im stopping this is pissing me off more and making me feel even more like shit..