in a sense I feel reborn, I'm trying to grasp the whole fact that nothing lasts forever. and I guess at the time I didn't really see how wonderfully I had it. Love was something I had never experienced up until that point. and I guess I let him slip away; and now well... we've faded too far in order for me to try and get him back but I guess that is the way the cookie crumbles....? I just don't want to be considered just another girl to him. I think I am entitled to more than that. I don't want him to forget about me because I know I will never forget about him. AND I didn't think about him that much today. My mind was in a different place. I dont know what place that is exactly, but it wasn't on him. Actually I didn't really sit down and think about anything today. except that I am going to be a father now [LOL.. long story] so that should be fun isn't it weird how people are stupid around others, but when it is just u and them then well its different ya kno? I saw that today in a number of people. today was an all around great day. I haven't been able to say that and mean it these days, but now i can. because well I've got it in my head... that people are in ur past for a reason, and I dont want that past coming back anymore. because I get my hopes up too high. so back u go into ur little box in the BACK of my mind, along with every memory you and I have together, and the feelings, everything back where u belong. Just gotta take it one day at a time, eh?