yep, here i am; thinking. never a good thing when it comes to me... its so sad. lol. i hate thinking but unfortunately its a natural thing for me. im naturally a forgive and forget person. i don't hold grudges. its not my nature. i feel bad holding grudges. it gets you nowhere. i just love being happy, and im not when i hold grudges. i won't like him again. i can tell u that straight up. after being in the same class as him, i know now that it isn't the case anymore. was it ever really the case? did i ever really want him back as a boyfriend? i really dont think so. it was just the concept of the matter that he was gone now, after being in my life for so long. after being the one that i spent time with, that i got to know, that would let me in. he got me hooked. it was crazy. i loved the kid. you see how i am talking in past tense? ....past tense.... let's define past tense shall we? SmarterChild: past tense: Noun A verb tense used to express an action or a condition that occurred in or during the past. i know u talk about the concept of the matter. but the concept of the matter is void in this situation. its not him who i love. its not him who i will ever love again. those feelings are gone. the love is dead.. sorry to say, but i feel nothing towards him now. i see him as a human, and don't reflect on the past when i talk to him. i don't reflect on the past when i talk to anyone. i've learned that thinking about the past ruins ur future. you should know that by the first two times i went out and broke up with you. if i dwelled on the past so much, i wouldn't be here.. over 4 months happily being YOURS i wouldn't be trying to show you that u are my only one, that i love no one more than you. i wouldn't be trying to work on these things. i wouldn't want to try to work things out, i wouldn't want to be yours. BOY CAN'T YOU SEE? SHE'S CRAZY ABOUT YOU! everything I do, is for you. I just wish u would believe that. there is a reason why he is in my past. can u accept that? can u believe that i love you and only you? can u believe that u are the only one i want for the rest of my life? do you believe me? or do u think im just bullshitting?