these days, i've been secretly depressed i think. lol, well now i'm better since i talked to some folks that know how to make me feel better. but yeah... didn't do so hot on nelsen's test. goddamn it. i hate him; actually its all my fault so whatever. ummmmmm... really wish i could talk to my hunny right now. i don't feel good and i feel like a party pooper but i don't feel good. happy birthday John. :- LOL. we got him some cool shiz. :] cute cute. and this week has been slightly better than last week, on a bunch of levels. i already hate school and i haven't even been there for two months. gettin 3 b's and 1 a... so yeah. hopefully i can pull my shit together. i love matthew very much and we are working on our things. so yeah. i hope he knows that i love him and that i will always be here for him; no matter what. :) what else? nothing. going to the mall tomorrow. so that should be fun. its sweetest day. i love you matthew. u are my sweetie. :D but yeah, i'm tired and gonna wait for matt to come online or kick me off. ttyl