ugh, i dont feel good at all today. :( i have a stomach ache [i feel like i could throw up] i have a major headache, i think its heatstroke. i walked down to school to drop off my fucking summer homework, and it is very hot out today. its like..... 90ish and very humid. i thought i was gonna die. :( and that was 2 hours ago when i got back and i still have this headache, so i am kinda pissed. :( ew, i was all sweaty and everything but i came home and took a shower. yesterday i had a good talk with zachary. we're becoming closer, friend-wise. it was a nice starting point, and i love how we can go to each other with our problems.. with our significant others.. he helped, kinda. we got some things straight. and i talked to Mario too, and he helped as well. :) i love my boys!! :P and i think i just need to give Matthew time and show him that i will always be here for him. "i'll earn ur trust makin memories of us." i guess i was just being impatient. and this is the point that me and zach were at when we fell apart, and i feel bad... cuz idk what to do and i just dont want to give up again because it made me feel bad the last time i gave up. :( so yea.. we're gonna work on this. :D thanx for ur comments.. and make sure to leave more!!! :P