woah i feel pretty proud of myself. i was out in the sun for about an hour and 15 minutes and i got a pretty good tan line. :) i like it when i'm dark. i might go out later, but i need a snack. mmm mom bought some straw- and raspberries! good shit right there. i love fruit. last night i went to andrea's and i saw the Notebook for the first time. i know i am late when it comes to seeing the good movies, but just deal with it! :) I was crying like a mother effer and it was just o/C cuz it wasn't sad as in bad, it was sad as in the best possible way. it was a beautiful movie. we talked some deep talks, i'm not use to opening up with people and with Andrea that has changed. I tell her everything like all the time now. I hope she appreciates that because it's not easy for me to do! love u beans! Me-"That is the kinda love I want." Andrea-"that is the kinda love you have!" that was cute because I don't ever want to let him go. I don't want him to ever stop loving me and I just yea. I love him too much for me to fuck this up for a third time. I'm smarter this time. I wish I could be spending more time with him. i swear when we aren't together I just don't feel right. I feel like I'm lost. it's such a weird feeling becuase I have never felt this way before and I love it. I can't wait for this weekend to come. :) we're going to st. roman's! I cannot wait! this is gonna rock! I hope to see everyone there. everyone cool that is. well that is about it for now.. time for a snack and i might go out to the pool.. but i should clean my room and clean the kitchen and the salla, but idk yet! peace out thugz! Fe