So its starts. The changes have begun and I can no more stop them than I can freeze the earth in its orbit. He left 7ish hours ago. I'll see him again in a few days but the time already drags. I can't sleep... its weird not having him next to me. These next few weeks are going to be tough. So many people are showing back up in my life... I'm not really afraid, just tired. One I would have done anything to have another chance with... but now I don't know what to do. I'm staying with my plans. I will not give this up. The others are easier, but still hard. Leaving will be good for me. I'll still be here as much as I can, but I'll have a home far from all this turmoil to return to. I need this change. I only hope it happens quick. Time wears on me far too much, I need a home. A real home, not a just a place to live. *sigh* This is all far too complicated. I need to get things done. I will. Eventually they'll understand. She will too. In time. Always in time. Until then I'll take what is given. I'll sit back and watch and listen and only act when the time is right. Time. Funny how it works so well and is still such a burden. Let teh race against time begin.