*sigh* I hate to say this... but I don't think I'm going to audition for Faire this year. I just looked at the calander, and with the baby at home, I think it might be asking too much of Goat to let me do it. I'll still talk with him about it... but I don't think its gonna be the best idea. :( Having Winter home is...weird. She's so sweet and cuddly, but so tiring! Not as much as she could be, but still, only getting an hour (or less) of sleep at a time is taxing. And I can't seem to convince myself to put her down. *sheepish grin* I know I have to put her down so I can do things... but its so hard to when she's all comfortable and sleeping... I've had my sister and mom come visit pretty much everyday which has been nice. I feel awkward though, because when I'm alone it feels like everythings going to hell and I REALLY NEED someone to come help, but when they're HERE... I have everything under control. I feel bad about it. Like, my sister came over today and I really didn't need anything, and Winter was asleep so I had been doing dishes, but I didn't want to just do dishes when my sister was over... you see my problem? Also, I'm terrified of taking her out of the house. I'm not sure when babies are supposed to be allowed to travel so THAT worries me... and I know she need to be fed or changed about every two hours so I know once we actually get OUT she'll need something... *sigh* I'm just scared. Also I don't like taking her in my car cuz i still have no fricken window. BUT, if I can get out to Blue Springs, my dad has a window that might fit. So I guess I have to take her to BS tomorrow...eek! But I'll do it. Though... I'll have to drive her home by myself... ugh. Why does Goat have to work!? Its not fair! I'm so scared of doing something wrong. :( Ugh.... Anyway... I haven't really seen Juliete for a few days. Haven't even gotten to really talk to her. :( Oh well, we're both pretty busy. But its still sad. I miss her. Hopefully I'll get to see her again soon, maybe she'll come visit! *hopeful* It would be nice anyway. Ummm.... Goat and I are doing WONDERFUL. We haven't really been able to do anything special, or even really cuddle or kiss much, but we've still been doing so well... I love him so much it hurts sometimes. He's so cute with the baby, too... he's a great daddy. :) I wish he were easier to wake up though... in the early mornings (2-7ish) he just sleeps like a rock. I've been having to do all the feedings and things then. But I guess thats alright. He DOES have to go to work. And, even though I still have to stay home and do more feedings and changings ALL DAY, there is the small chance she'll sleep and I'll get to take a short nap. I dunno, I'm not sure if things even out, but we're doing okay with it. I should go, though, and finish some dishes and stuff before Winter wakes up again. *sigh* I miss having the time to talk and write... but I wouldn't trade it. :) I love my baby.