i am so fucking tired. Its sunday. i hate sundays. because its the beginning of a new fucking week of school shit. March Break is in 2 weeks i think. i wanted my friend to come over and like spend the week, but no she "wants" to go to her grandmas even though she does every single fucking year. JESUS. I miss everything my life used to be. i mean i miss my friends from last year. i miss my bunny who died. i still cry almost everyday about that. he was my security blanket. when ever i was upset, i would go into my room and take him out and cry. and now that he is gone, i have nothing. i bought him with my own money. he was my first pet that was only mine. every time i hear the song Angel i cry, because when i went to resturant the day hunter died, i went into the bathroom and i cried, then this beautiful song comes on, and i break down and just sob. oh how i miss him. i got a fucking cold sore. ugh i hate them so much. i hate the feeling. I am hungry but we don't have any food in this crap house. it's suppose to be spring, but its FUCKING SNOWING!! ugh the weather is all messed up i bought new pants last night, i felt so greedy because they were 35$. i could i have gotten pants for way less. now i only have like 5 $ left! i am so poor. i need new shoes too, but i am so poor! ugh i am such an ass. If You want to read my old diary all you have to do is go to google and search diaryland + sassysweetie And there i am! OR go to http://members.diaryland.com/edit/view.phtml?user=sassysweetie Have you ever thought about killing yourself? i have. i cut myself. not too deep but just enough so i can feel the pain, that way i can feel something, but there have been times when i have taken that razor and thought why not cut a little deeper, who would miss me. i have tried to stop the cutting, but i like it, that sounds fucked. but i like the pain. i like feeling something i like the blood oozing from my wrist and the tears fall from my face People Suck sometimes, they are so judgemental of everyone but themselves, They make others feel like shit and that way they can feel better about their faults and it's disguisting. i don't think that is what god planned when he made us. No i am not a religion freak, but i am (kinda) catholic, by that i mean i never go to church and i don't believe in half of what they say is tradition, but i believe in God, and Jesus. i mean i have been the girl to say, God doesn't exist, but i need something to believe in. I think Everyone Does. I wonder if anyone is going to read this. if anyone even cares. I doubt it. i haven't decided if i am going to give anyone this URL. i gave my friend brittney the last one. and that wasn't a mistake, or anything, she never judged me about anything. if i give anyone this it would be her, because i know we will never fight, we never had and we became friends 3 years ago. so i trust her more then anyone. no offense to Giselle(my best friend of 5 yrs) but Giselle has said some really damaging things when we fought, all of her insults are either about my weight or about having no friends or being a loser. and that hurts. I can never forget those words she has uttered. i have forgave them thou. and i wouldn't hold them against her. but i just can't forget them