what a weekend. Mother's day was hellish. i had dinner with my mom and my dad and my sister, but i had a fight with my mom on saturday and a small one on sunday. i know i know, i am a horrible kid. it's 6:30, and it has been storming forever. thunderstorms and lightning. ugh. i hate them. and it's going to be like this all week. Today was (as usual) boring. the high point of my day was waiting for my friend Brittney to walk to cch from central, and hanging out with her for 40 minutes. i wish my lunch was longer. i have a huge math test tomorrow and i am totally ready to fail it. i am getting a zit. i can feel it. i hate this feeling. i FEEL LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT TODAY! everything is aching. i had a fight with the razor today too. so i have two crosses on my arm. i am going to be homeless soon. the fucking gouverment is trying to take my dad's paychecks. that is all of our income. if they suceed, my family is fucked. I feel a bit poeic today. not really. i just feel like im suffering, which usually causes poems. I feel like listening to music, but my kazaa fucks up my computer. i am trying to open Kazaa, but it is fucking up I have a huge issue with those musician fucks, who complain about them losing money because of burning music. well i am sorry if me burning a cd means you cannot afford a THIRD OR FIFTH CAR! i am sorry, if this burnt cds issue means u cannot live in a 45 roomed house even though 2 people live in it. FUCK OFF YOU HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO LAST A LIFE TIME! WHY DON'T YOU TRY GIVING MONEY TO CHARITY INSTEAD OF WHINING ABOUT LOSING MONEY BITCH! i know if they weren't famous that they would burn cds too. OMG MY KAZAA IS PISSING ME OFF! I HATE MY COMPUTER SO FUCKING MUCH ! I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF! My life could officially not get any worse. everything is fucked. My family life, school, my mental heath, my emotional stabiliy. i am sick of this mess. but i know i have to try to stay strong. i have to do something to end my family's misery.