Last night this guy from my drama class told me that bascially he only talks to me to get closer to my friend. it was prolly the harshest thing anyone has ever said to me. it was so unexcepted. i cried. Then nicole started trying to make me jealous by fucking talking about ryan. bitch fuck. i dont know why he likes her. it because shes pretty and small. but shes a [insert insult here]. Today, was...amazing...i dunno. i dont wanna go on and on about it. i dont know. He was extremely nice. very very. the whole time before i got there. i kept saying, "i dont wanna go." because i was terrified. lol So i met him out front of silvercity at 12 40. When i saw him, i knew it was him. he was so cute. nice to me. his eyes are a gorgeous brown. lol. wow i cant believe i fellowed through. we saw the longest yard. it was really good, but really sad too. i was sitting there. brewing in my low self esteem. He smelled really good. lol. i'm not even sure if it was a date. we both kinda said in passing that it was. but i dunno. During the movie, our shoulders were touching. lmao. i'm a fucking loser. he was really tall. lol. i went to like his shoulder. lol. so after the movie we had a couple of hours to kill since both our parents were coming @ 5. Then he gave me his necklace. we hung out in the food court for a bit. then we walked around for longer. just talking. We went and sat down on a bench and talked for a while. lol. he said his hair was really gelly and i leaned over and touched his hair. lmao. it was geeky. then we walked around for longer. then he was hungry so we went and he bought some lunch, i wasnt hungry. then we went and he bought himself a hat. i helped him choose which one. lol. we left and it was too big. lol. so then we decided to go back and exchange. when we were walking he put the hat on me. lol and it like covered my eyes. lol. it was funny. so he exchanged it. i saw one of my teachers. lol awkward. then we found out it was time to go. it was fun. i hope he thinks so. i hope he talks to me again. god. i'm terrifed.