well i feel like shit. i'm going to fail my science exam cuz i didn't fucking study. i dont even know if i care anymore. fuck. it's not fair. it's not fair. it's not fair. i knew the whole, same anniversy thing was bullshit. cuz they are getting closer and closer and ryan is growing more and more distant. fucking asshole. why can't be just be like he used to be. I'm a green eyed monster. i'm so fucking jealous right now. why can't i have anything? anything in my god damn life. fuck this. i hate her for having it better. and you know why? it's because she's fucking skinny. fuck that. fucking bullshit. ITS NOT FAIR! and i am NOT her fucking keeper. so why wont these fuckbags stop asking me where she is, how she is, what she is doing. fuck off. i dont know. frankly right now i dont care. God fucking damn it. i just want to fucking end my life. god i'm such a melodramatic fag.