a new day begins. i woke up this morning feeling crappy. i had breakfest, which is a first in a while. i never did any of my homework last night and i got 3/18 on my math test. but i am going to bring up my grades later, when i am not so sad. i keep wondering, what will make them believe me, what will make them see that i am sad. i should have listened to my sister and gone to the doctor for some anti depressants. i might, later. i just need the people who said they would help, to do it. i mean seriously, why is that so hard? why did they promise me a world without tears, and then cause me so many. i have to cut deeper, thats the only way they will see. i have to scream louder, that is the only way they will hear. the only way that i can prove them wrong, to make them see i did need someone, is to kill myself. but i don't think that would help my friend(s). We are watching this stupid thing in tech about chess. oh now it cut to a thing about making a cartoon cept it just told us how to draw a cartoon. i don't draw. i suck at art, thats why i didn't take it. now its a movie abouy the dress code. this is so dumb. i can't even heard it. im done for now. i'll be back