It has been a while since the last entry. It's been a week since my rendez-vous with Ryan, and i'm not even sure if it was a date anymore. oh well. He's been uber nice to me, and he was very flirty when i talked to him on thursday, problem is, i haven't talked to him since. Blah. On thursday, nicole went on about how he grabbed her really aggrestivie and how he like tried to hit her with a chair, and like pushed her up against a wall. all of which i knew was bullshit, but i asked him about it, and he was like, "she's just trying to get you not to like me" and apparently, she asks him like everyday, "do you still like me?" who asks that?! seriously. but i dont think he does anymore cuz he called her a bitch who talks about people behind there back. :D. THEN i asked him if he had his eye on anyone, and he was like "u" :D. man, even after he's seen me. But there's still the thought in my mind, that he's just fucking around. like, joking, or just leading me on. i don't know. I can't see how anyone could like me. but i hope to god he does. I might have to go away for the summer. i don't want too. Just because of the whole summer school thing, and i don't want him to forget about me. which he might, which he will. because he's that kind of guy. Again, guess what i'm doing. sitting here, waiting to see if he'll come online, but i already know he won't. Gawd. i hate feelings. they piss me off to no end. AND i have a fucking FRENCH essay to write on a subject i have no idea about. fuck. this. Why can't he just fucking log in. Sad thing is, he was on earlier, like 9 in the morning my friend said, which means, he's probably not going to be on for a while. This sucks. My hearts analyzing everything you said..Did you take me for a fool or did you really care..