It seems that the best way to get all of my emotions down is to write them out or to talk to someone for some odd reason that still deludes me. Currently my only answer is that Fe, extraverted feeling, is my relief function. I certainly don’t do as well with Fi, introverted feeling, sometimes I really don’t know what I want to do, or even how I feel about something. Or at least I don’t until I either talk about it write it out. Also, I tend to make better decisions, at least when it comes to decisions of feeling, when I talk to other people about my feelings on the topic. I know that if I had been willing to talk about my feelings towards Tyler more to others that I might have seen reason and done something more to catch him, or to at least have let him know how I feel so that he could cut me loose and so that I would not have suffered so much. The thing is, I know that at that time he wouldn’t have cut me loose. He was interested in me for a time, it’s so clear to me now that it hurts to admit it. But the more I admit it, the less I feel hurt by it, I guess it’s because I’m allowing myself to believe that someone who I was romantically interested in was actually interested in my back. So often I’ll find guys who act like they’re interested in me and I’m not interested in them, or they’re just playing. The problem is knowing when they’re “playing” and when they’re “hunting” or whatever it is that guys do when they’re serious. I don’t want to lead any poor soul along, and the problem is that I’ve done that before unwittingly. I just never really want to admit that it had happen. I just wish I knew why it was happening, and what I was doing to lead them on. It’s not like I’m drop dead gorgeous or anything like that, although I’m not ugly, I'm just not a super model. Maybe if I’d actually put some effort into my looks I’d be very beautiful and all that, but, I don’t want a guy who is attracted to me because I’m physically beautiful, I want someone who is attracted to me emotionally. One day this will happen, and when it does, I will see it as a kind of miracle. I just have to make sure that I’m out there and do all that is in my power to make it happen. With a little determination anything is possible. At the same time, I want to make sure that he is the RIGHT guy for me. He must meet the same standards as Tyler did, and still does, only differnce is that he must love in return and be a bit more persistant towards me. The phoenix will one day soar in glory, in joy, and in love. ~Amyelk Out