A while back in institute I heard a girl say that it’s easier to be happy than to be sad. I had to disagree at the point because at that time it was a lot harder for me to become happy than to be sad. The thing that reminded me of this was something the Teresa said in her blog recently that has helped me to start to form my own opinion of whether it’s actually easier to be happy or sad. I’ve decided that its not actually a matter of which emotion is easier to be. I’ve decided that whatever emotion you’ve made a habit of being, is going to be the easiest to emotion to be. Some people seem to be able to stay happy through almost anything, part of it is acting of course, but the other part is that they’ve managed to make it a habit to be happy. What is difficult is when a person who has made a habit of being ‘depressed,’ as I have for the last couple of years of my life, tries to make themselves be happy. I’m currently trying to change my habit, and to not let external events affect my emotions so much. The last few mornings I’ve been telling myself that ‘today will be a good day’ and then I try to make it happen despite what goes on around me. I’m sure last Saturday would’ve been a lot worse if I hadn’t been trying to make that day a ‘good’ day. You see I became rather sick on Saturday from the immunizations that I had on Friday. I think my brain is still a little fried from them actually. Anyways, when I first got up I was swaying like a drunken sailor and just collapsed on the couch after a brief trip to the bathroom in which I expected to throw up but didn’t. My mom was positive that I’d managed to contract meningococcus from the vaccination. More information about it here. I recited that the vaccination for that one because there have been cases of it in the area where my college is and I decided that I didn’t want to risk dying from it! There’s a girl on my floor who went to a private school in the area and knew a girl who died from it. People who live in dorms have a greater chance of getting it. Also the likelihood of an early diagnosis is slim because it’s a big hassle to get to the hospital since I don’t have a car or a drivers license. I didn’t get the disease, so I’m very happy. Also I am very out of it, but not really feeling tired. I’m going to bed now. Good night. ~Amyelk Out