I just found out that Megan's dad died in a car wreck a couple of months ago. I feel shocked, and sad, and I don't know what else. Do I feel sad? I'm not even sure. I think I'm going to try and get to know more guys, see if I can actually start dating. I don't really want a boyfriend, but I do think it would help me to experience life more. It would also help me to fully get over Tyler before he gets home so that he and I can be just friends. Boyfriends come and go quickly, friends usually last longer. Dating is supposed to be fun though. I'd really like to actually be asked out on a date by someone who I've met prior to the asking and go and a date with him. I still, kind of care about Tyler, but I haven't heard from him since early october. I think he might've run out of paper. The last letter he sent to me was on a different piece of paper than normal. Frankly, if he wrote me a letter on a nampkin I wouldn't mind. He must be busy, and he isn't all that crazy about me. Oh well. We can still be friends. Although he'll probably fade out of my life in the next 5 years. ~Amyelk Out