The other night I was reading about body language. I’m afraid that I don’t have the link too it. Reading the articles caused me to see that what I suspected, and not what I feared, was true. For a time, Tyler was attracted to me. It was all in his body language and I was too busy struggling with my self-esteem to realize it. Now that I am willing to accept it, I find that it is a bitter sweet realization. Bitter because I know that the chances of something ever coming out of it are very slim and I also know that I caused him a big disappointment at the least when I failed to let him get close to me. The realization is sweet because it means that mutual attraction can happen to me and because it renews my faith in my ability to ever find real love. In other news: I’m going home tomorrow! ~Amyelk Out