I finally realised why I was unable to get with Tyler, and why I wouldn't have been able to get with him even if he had returned my feelings. Out of selfishness, I have grown to fear to be kind to people, and where such selfishness is, real love can not be. The realization gives new meaning to a verse in an old Girl Scout song, "On my Honor," I'm not sure which verse it is, but here are the lyrics to a part of it: "Friendship is the strangest game if you keep it to yourself, no reward will you gain..." same applies to love and relationships in general. Now to work on Finals. Heh, I have three things for theater tomorow, and I need to write 5 more pages for the research paper that I need to turn in tomorow. I also have an on-line final that I need to finsih today. Then I have two actual finals on Wednesday, and I just remembered that I'm practicing my last theater piece at 9 pm today and doing the final of it on friday. ~Amyelk Out