I can't believe I left this blog alone for so long. Gah! I had comments to answer too and didn't, but it's been so long that I'm not sure it's even relevant any more... I'm glad this semester is almost over - I'm ready for a long break, but I still have a ways to go before I get that break. Updates: I'm now an official English major with a Computer Science minor. I'm convinced that I'm a psychotic female now that I look back at what happened between Tyler and I, particularly over the last little while. In brief: end of September it looks like him and Chersti are going to get get together from what they were doing on facebook. This hurts me a lot, so I end all contact with both of them and send him a note explaining why I did what I did and apologize for my weakness essentially. I spend all October wondering if he read the note or not because of how I worded it/ fearing running into him. Fall break go to Kayley's branch see him, feel really bad for what happened/ feel bad for more or less ignoring him there. So I sent him a note inquiring if he read my note or not. He writes back and wants to know what he did wrong. I write back re-explain that it was because I like him too much for my own good - I could've been happy to see other guys get in a relationship but not him etc. Get to a point where I'm not going to ignore him but I'm not going to get to close to him either. I think he understands now and won't try to get too close to me again. He told me repeatedly that he doesn't want to get into a serious relationship at the moment through out this - I never asked too. I tend to think that he just doesn't like me and that he's too polite to say so. I'm just trying to put an end to this emotion. I'm trying to expand my horizons and date around more - but it hasn't happened so far - I just want to get to know more people. I feel better about this situation now in many ways. ~Amyelk Out