Sometimes I just don't know how to put things into words. No, it's not that, it's that I don't know where to start. There are so many things I need to learn, so many things that I know that I need to apply. I finished reading A Passage to India today. It was pretty good, although some how I can't seem to get into novels like I used to. I love being here. At the same time I'm not as socially involved as I'd like to be. I think I'm around average intellect here. Then again, I guess that depends on how you define intellect. There are just as many kinds of genius as there is knowledge. I'm a bit of a social numbskull at times. Then again, almost everybody makes social errors from time to time. I need to learn to stop comparing myself to others. It's not looks that I compare so much as it is intellect, creativity, spirituallity, and other intangibles. I should look at my own progression alone, and compare myself to myself only. It's something that I can do, I just need to work on it. It some ways I feel utterly simplistic when I write about things like this. It seems like it should be obvious, but is it? There's always room to improve, or at least that's how it seems. Or maybe in some things you can get to a point where you can't improve that much. If so, I'm not there yet in any aspect of my life. I'm young, so that's ok. It seems like a lot of people are dying lately. Victoria, the two SV students, and now this one person who I know's Grandfather. Fall, and we're all falling down. I had fun this weekend with Kayley who came up to see me. We made cookies, went to a concert, and did some window shopping. We also argued a bit, but we both did debate, so what do you expect. It really says something about one of my relationships when we get to the point where we can argue and walk away without hurt feelings. We respect each others differences. It's nice. Almost makes me want to transfer to USU. Almost. There are some nice people here too. I may not feel comfortable calling them up to do stuff, but we are still friendly. ~Amyelk Out