it seems like i don't have friends anymore. They all have their own lives now. Missy has David, Michelle has cheerleading, Jade has michelle, Lizzie has vo-tech. It's so crazy. I know you think I probably only have 3 friends, well i dont haha. I could hang out with Alicia, she's grounded and wouldn't be able to anyway because of the summer conflict. I could hang out with Justine, who I still don't particularly like. We get along and she's my friend, but I still have it in the back of my head..you know? Well, you wouldn't know unless you knew the story. I'll save another entry for that, just so that I don't confuse anyone in future entries. I could probably hang out with most of the people I talk to in school, which is a lot of people. I choose not to. haha, being anti-social is awesome. I just want to keep it in my "group." Don't get me wrong, I love making new friends, but the ones I have are comfortable. We havn't really hung out for the past month or so, but I still feel decent with them. I don't think I'd want any better then what I already have. I'm making no sense at all. I'm confusing myself. I just want out of this house. Everyone is always fighting with each other. It's usually one of my 3 siblings and i. Or it's usually my parents and I. Even when my parents fight I get all the blame. Is there anyone else out there who always feels like they lose in life? Even my horoscope said that I always see the glass half empty...not that i believe in any of that stuff.... I don't know. I'm confusing myself now...so I think I'm just gonna go and think or something. Bye.