i'm amazed that this thing still exsists. it's been a long time, and it's amazing how much things have changed. I was reading from the beggining and I am shocked at how quickly time has gone. life is so weird that way. one day you have these people in your life, and the next it's like you hardly know each other. i guess change in friends comes with change in maturity. i look back at these entries and realize how immature i was, and i realize how much pressure i put on myself, and how much time i wasted on little, unimportant aspects of my life. i was so desperate for attention that i would cause drama over little things, and i was so desperate for a boyfriend that i would hate those who got in my way. i'm happy that this journal is still around, i'm happy it is here to remind me of what i was like before and how i have changed for the better. growing up feels great. ♥Tammy