Ahhh, I'm so tired...haha, i have no idea why... anyway--yesterday i wake up and my dad is outside with all this sand and all this stuff. and i look to see what he's doing and he's setting up a pool. lovely, i think. well, we got a pool. it's one of those blue ones that everyone has. it's not very deep or very big, buut it's a pool..and i'm sure..once it's warmer, i will swim in it. now onto more.."important" things. like how shitty i've felt latley. for not reason at all. i just feel like i could be doing more, and i'm not. maybe i should just get a job and work as much as possible. i need the money...and it would give me something to do with myself. maybe i'm just not the person i want to be. i don't know...it's like, i'm being really mean to my family. i've felt really bad because a lot of the stuff i say isn't true. idk, i'm being as nice as i can. maybe it's my lack of sleep, or maybe i think too much about everything and blame it on everyone else. bbq today....anyone wanna come over...come. you can swim in my freezing cold pool too. bye. p.s. ehh.