i'm feeling better now. missy is a great friend..i don't know how i ever went without her. We had a nice talk, and it helped...i'm still pretty sad about everything, but it was nice to tell someone all about it, and have them actually listen. I'm just so sick of rejection. And like missy said, I don't understand how the meanest people get everything they want, and have these perfect lives..and the nicest people never get what they want, and are constantly sad. Maybe I should just become mean and stop being so damn nice. maybe i should point out everyone flaws, and talk about them behind their backs. maybe that'll get me somewhere. but, i don't want to be like that--i don't care if i never get what i want...in the end i'll be the better person, even if i do feel like crap. I just wish i would get a chance. i think i'm a pretty fun person to be around, and i laugh at pretty much everything--so i'm not hard to entertain. I don't understand. I know i'm not that great looking, but i'm not hideious. i think i'm just too picky. you have to be close to perfection for me to like you. So yeah-everyone i've ever liked, at one point in my eyes, you were almost perfect. Congrats. But seriously, missy helped me a lot. We didnt just talk about that--we talked about everything. like, our past situations with friends and guys. she made me feel better. thanks lissa...i love you! Anyway, I gotta go, I'm pretty hungry. Bye.