i hate valentines day. Kelly sent me flowers and the note read, "happy valentines day from your secret admirer xoxo." i knew it was her cuz she does it every year...but i haaaaate it. it just reminds me more that i have no one to send me flowers. i felt bad because i was kind of mean to her on the phone, but, whatever. i was upset. i'm so frustrated with life right now! i hate my job, but i need a job, and i need money because i need a car, but that can wait cuz i have a deadline for senior week. Everything just sucks right now. I think I'm just not gonna go back to work at all. I'll check out red robin, and then i can work w/ scott and kara. or maybe the bank...i dunno. i wish i could just skip ahead a few year. like, my junior year in college. i don't mean to be all sad and stuff, but i'm really scared. I'm scared because..I wanna be a young mother, and i wanna be married young. like, i wanna be able to raise my kids and still be like 40 when they're my age. i'm scared because i dont have a boyfriend!!!!!! blah. whatever. i need a remote control. i need to be able to pause, rewind, or fast forward my life sometimes. this is one of them. bye. tammy.